I'm just a girl, barely out of her teens, barely into adulthood. I need to remember that. Things like, money, a house, credit cards, are not supposed to come yet. I'm just a girl, a girl who's asking a little bit too much out of herself. I've pushed my boundaries as far as they would go, as far as I could make them go.

There is just no more room for me to push now, this is all the space I have, and will have for the next few years, at least. It's sad that people don't move out when they're 18 here, I would much prefer that.

you shall all patronise my tumblr now, too

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"When all of your social life goes down the drain, that's when you're due for a promotion."


I know the former is happening to me, somewhat? But for a reason I'm really not sad that it is. I enjoy the office, more than I do home sometimes mainly because of the atmosphere, the smell, feeling I get there, and most of all my job. It's like, I actually matter there, people do need me and I'm not just another student trying to complete her diploma. Work is pretty much my life now, it's pretty much all I think about, and although that's... bad for people and you're not... supposed to do that, I really don't mind it.


Is it really work when you enjoy it? I mean, there are dreadful moments when you feel your arms are going to give way carrying shopping bags, but there is something to be said when what you're carrying is what you love. Well, most of it anyway.

I can hear people getting bored with me when I talk to them about my job, but I can't disguise it. It's all around me, when I get off work, I go back to it. I.E When I leave office, I go to Ion, which concurrently is my half office as well. I love that I recognize all the sales staff and make friends with them (discounts!!!) and that I know exactly where everything is because I spend most of my time in malls anyway, work or free time. The stylist who just left us, well, got numb toward malls, didn't find enjoyment in them anymore. Somehow that works in reverse to me. I spent a lot of time at Ion, I loved it more. Now I just spent a fuck load of time at Suntec, and now I love it more than ever. I hope I cultivate relationships with all malls (currently hoping to establish one with 313) and explore every nook and cranny of every store.


What more can I say? It's been a dream and I hope that once I get more responsibility, I'll finally get to bloom like I was born to.

Christmas is coming!!


I'm already excited, even though not much is going down. ... this is the first time I'm having an office Christmas Party, which I am fully excited for, mainly because I have never attended one in my 21 years of living. That being said, I think I have a lot to be thankful for this year, and therefore I am determined to make it to church this christmas to thank God for the wonderful turn of events that have happened this year, for my wonderful, fully awesome colleagues, with whom I would not trade anything for.

TuberCorp has not only been a dream, but I feel so fucking fortunate that I got posted there for my internship, because not only are the people fully awesome, the work is... what I love. Although work life has not exactly agreed with my body yet so far, (it's the routine I tell you) I'm confident that this will work out when I get into the swing of things. While it's been a rollercoaster of a ride, I love that I can get along with the people I respect with the most, and it just gets better when our interests collide.

And, I realise that all I talk about is work nowadays and I should probably stop. Hahahaha.

Wokay, so I have had two cancellations... no I think 3 cancellations tonight and I'm all alone o.o This is what happens when work > outside life. Oh well. On the BRIGHT SIDE, or not... I need blinkers for my wandering eye. I think I have shopped more in this month than I have in the last... idk. Period of my holidays. Not that I'm fully complaining.. it's just my bank account can't really handle the strain.

These are my newest babies, I spotted them at bugis street (yeah I know, so unlikely), and went OYOY They are comfy like you wouldn't imagine and the leather (PVC?) is so soft.

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A shot in black and white cos it's black and my colour shots with the Blackberry are pretty awful.

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Here are the ribbons I got at RIBBON HEAVENNN down at Arab Street. The place has EVERYTHING, including like feather boas and... tissue wrapping paper and yards and YARDS of ribbon. These were all I could afford at the time, because I only bring out about $10 when I go out sourcing for stuff. I'm not sure what I'm going to do yet with these babies but I sense projects coming up.

Also, I just realised that Catalog has just started a new section called D.I.Y where we feature handicrafts like collar pieces and fabric bangles... things you can make yourself at home. Another sign that this job was made for me. On that note however, I am constantly forced to choose between work and outside life and somehow work always wins. All that's on my mind these days are: How can I make Adele see that I am awesome and I should be hired as a full timer! :\ It's like acres of difference between me working at Wouter and me working at Catalog. Everything just seems so awesome. Even the smell of the place agrees with me.

I try to console myself sometimes, "You can go work at other magazines.." Then I ask myself which, and I come up with nothing. Hahaha. No other company can balance the huge and the small as well as Catalog. That said, go to the website or facebook and be a fan.

www.catalogmagazine.com
www.facebook.com/catalogmagazine


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Just a short entry before I head out; regarding work and everything else.

I realise Catalog is spoiling me faster than yoghurt on a hot day. When I think about what a Nine West launch or a FCUK show would mean to me before this internship, I kind of reel from the difference 2 weeks make. Two weeks ago, I would've been thrilled at the idea of even attending functions like these, and revel in the cheap thrills that are the freebies. But now, I get pissed off at why I don't get free shoes, (that fact is still irking me, even though officially i'm not entitled to them) and FCUK actually brought me a sense of dread seeing as how I was supposed to be there at 845am.

Things that have changed perspectives:

Reaching work at 1030
Before: OMG YEAHHH
Now: :) still yay, though I forsee a "oh that's normal" in the near future

Shopping
Before: THAT IS SO NOT A JOB
Now: Ah, okay. Let's go. ...(dammit better not get backache again)

Nine west launch
Before: Oh yay cooolnesss
Now: WHERE ARE MY FREE SHOES DAMMIT?

Photoshoot
Before: OMG THIS IS MY JOB LOL SO COOL
Now: -is all business like- "So what's the next outfit change?"

Box of Inovi cosmetics on my desk
Before: WHAT IS THAT OMG IS THAT MINE WHEE
Now: What is that doing on my desk?

Bahahahaha. Well at least I am relaxing a whole lot more at work, and I'm seriously enjoying it. Love being in the magazine industry, and I love being in Catalog, where everything is a perk. I hope this stint continues, and I hope to be here for much longer than 5 months. :)

Also, instead of free shoes, I got a nine west gold lame binder notebook, which is kind of hideous, which, at the same time appeals to my tranny tendencies so I'm not sure whether I'm liking it or not.

I hope I'm not getting too jaded too fast because being at work now is like a neverending surprise for me. I dread missing a minute because every minute counts; it's like a dream come veryvery true. In addition to everything that's been going on, I was also in Urban yesterday because of Ade and her Shu Uemura competition!! Grats to Ade and her supertastic makeup skills. You're at the same league as people who fly to France to do shoots!! Hahaha. My life seems to be taking a turn for the fabuloussssss, I'm not sure if I'll be happy anywhere but here.

This holds the same for my feel for Biopolis, where I loved the smell of the lab. I love the woody smell of the office, and the dim lighting that is suitable for vampires like myself :)

Thanks Adele, I really love it when you turn off the harsh fluorescence and bring on the cosy lighting. And even though you will never see this, you are an awesome boss, a great editor, an even awesomer colleague and I will remember this for the rest of my life.

Psst: Although I'm already jaded of sorts, I did get a slight jizz to find "Your exclusive invite to our Topshop Topman ION Orchard Fashion Party" in my mail ^_^

Okay now off to my colleague's housewarming party. Ta!

P.S. Kudos to Kor again for my iPod touch. I always think of you when I use it. .... smart move there. It has also helped me a million dozen times and not to mention that I would have felt more out of place at the office if I didn't have one. But really, you're a Godsend and so is it.

Those of you who are close to me, you may have recently found out that I have a newly acquired TOY!! (See above) that has been given to me by my Kor, (one and only non blood related friend I deem fit enough to call my sibling) Colin Wong Hong An (WHA for short) for my 21st birthday.

I have probably been overworking it and downloading all sorts of useless apps and watching videos and doing crap like logging on to Tweetdeck on it while my laptop is open JUST BECAUSE I CAN.

So I owe this entry to my magnificent piece of machinery.

1) It's Apple
2) It's a mini computer that plays VIDEOS
3) It has a long battery life that is fully awesome
4) FUN FOR THE WHOLE FAMILYYY because it has apps even roy's mum can play
5) It has BUS GUIDES
6) It has one of the world's most POWERFUL touch screens
7) You can use it to distract people while you're carrying out your ulterior motive (ie getting away from creepy guy)
8) It has a very good mail function which I LOVE, if only I had this instead of buying my xperia which is TOTES not user friendly at alllll
9) TWEETDECKK
10) Forex On the Go (for roy, so that he doesn't always need to rush home to caress his charts)

The only pet peeve I have about it is the touch screen keyboard which is KIND OF A BITCH, but it's okay, all things considered, it needs to have a flaw.

Also, a heads up for everyone I'll be starting work soon at Catalog Magazine on the 22nd of September so if anyone has a spare lunch hour around River Valley, you know I'll be free.*



*Offer only valid for non-creepy persons

Desperation also includes cropping a group shot of you and me imagining of a future that will never be.

I tried not to be nasty, but it seems as if I only have two extremes: to be a complete bitch or to be a complete sweetheart whom you just can't help but like. I also don't want to be presumptuous, but there comes a time when denial stares you in the face like school on a Monday.

There are just too many hints thrown at your face that your intelligence feels insulted because he thinks you apparently ~do not get it~ when you're happily attached, to SOMEONE ELSE.

Sometimes being dense has its privileges because then you can claim ignorance to the signs around you. You would think having a boyfriend buys you some sort of immunity against random guys who try to hit you up, but no, the sg breed is kind of resistant against that strain. Did I just make scientific sense?

The reason why I'm feeling so fervently about this again is because the number of hits has significantly increased since I've become happier due to the absence of worry, thus I suppose I seem brighter to the world and boys find that more appealing than my bitchface.

That was a bad sentence structure but idgaf ('I don't give a fuck' to the uninitiated) since I'm all tired out from traipsing around Chinesetown today looking for fabric. On the up side, I have completed my fabric shopping, gone to the tailor's, and made a pouch for my new ~*iPod Touch*~ that I will write about another time.

Hint: It was given to me as a 21st birthday present from a guy
Double hint: He's not creepy
Triple hint: His name starts with a Cor and ends with a lin.
Answer: I LOVE YOU KORKOR! ^_^

How's that for subtle?

I need to pen this down before anything else happens.

I woke up, sun's streaming through the window. I think, oh no, motherrrfucker! I overslept. Wait, that looks like afternoon sun. How much did I oversleep by? I am afraid to check my phone. 13:40. 16 missed calls, 14 messages. I crumble. How the fuck?? I don't even... I see $10 on my side table. What the fuck? I only do that when I call Mac Delivery. Unless my mum decides to give me money... but she always leaves it on the table with the flowers. No, this is my money. I check my phone log. Macs, 67773777, 2:30, 3 minutes. I freak out. WHAT?? I check my missed calls log, Jarrel,JarrelJarrelJarrelJarrelAmirul
AmirulAmirulNieNie(omfgnie) and a buncha unknown numbers. That must have been them then. I hope they didn't ring the doorbell to wake my parents up. I try to fill in the blanks of what happened between McD's till now. I find eclipse next to me. Right, so I read eclipse before whatever happened. So what happened? I read eclipse, and then what? I can't have fallen asleep cos my sleep isn't that deep when I am on valium and I didn't take any valium prior. I notice a pain at the back of my head. I lay on my phone charger all night long. Da fuck? I feel weak. Like I just knocked myself out with 30 mg of valium. Did I black out?

That's the only plausible answer I can think of now, but it's freaking me out because I feel as if I've been date raped, without the date and the rape. Hahaha jarrel just tweeted what I just typed.


edit: Also, the lights were on. My mum would've yelled at me first chance she got if she turned them off for me. Who turned them off?

I need to get out now, and maybe I'll remember what happened.

Ooookay. I've been getting a fair amount of requests as to what I want for my birthday, and someone suggested I put up a wishlist. Thing is, this is one year I'm actually holding a party and one year I can't really think of anything specific of what I want. NOT that you have to bring anything from this list, just for the people who want to :D

(in NO order of importance)

1) Dubonnet MAC lipstick (for the uninitiated, just tell the makeup artist the name hahahaha) THANK YOU DOOT!! (daniel) <3<3
2) Muji Oil based makeup remover
3) Craft wire (any colour, any thickness, for jewellery!!)
4) Jewellery making tools (pliers, clasps, jump rings)
5) Swarovski (note the bold) crystals, be it the small, hotfix ones, or the large dangly ones, or the ones you stick on your handphone, I don't really care! I'm a magpie and I love crystals and I see a urgent need for them in future.
6) Topshop 80 denier FULL LENGTH stockings (black)
7) Goldensoft Lip Gelee from MAC cosmetics much love NIEEEEEE <3<3
8) Random charms for jewellery making (the randomer the better)
9) Blacktrack Fluidline from MAC cosmetics
10) Industry Powerpoint from MAC cosmetics
11) Godric from True Blood. I want the real one kthx. No need gift wrap. :P
12) Food. Need to gain weight. Snacks preferably. :D:D


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On a separate note, ALTA MODA!!! :D :D :D